HRT, Testosterone & Misandry

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I started taking estradiol (2x/wk patch) and progesterone a few months ago. The first thing I noticed was my moods have been more stable. I also stopped taking Wellbutrin around the same time, so I think that's interesting. In general I have less aches and pains. If I could I'd take progesterone the entire month, but I want to have my period as long as my body wants to - let that end without inducing it to. Progesterone makes me feel so relaxed, I love it.

My biggest physical perimenopause symptoms have been uterine prolapse, high cholesterol, low thyroid, heavy but short periods, and fatigue. HRT has helped with most of these but I still need to get my cholesterol and thyroid levels checked to see what's happening there. My biggest emotional symptoms are mood swings, low libido and general impatience with people - mostly men. HRT has quelled the mood swings for sure.

For the libido I recently started testosterone but have yet to notice any changes. It's the lotion kind and it freaks me out how seriously the label demands DO NOT LET ANYBODY TOUCH THE APPLICATION AREA EVEN AFTER IT'S DRY! I mean, if I wanted to have sex and I needed some T to help me get in the mood, not allowing anybody to touch a large area of my body (it recommends outer leg or arm) kind of cancels out the effect. I'm going to see if there's a gel or oil that might work better.

But the man-hating is intense. It's like perimenopause is pushing me to confront all of the mistreatment I've experienced at the hands of men - and now I simply can't look at any of them the same way again.

I'm working on it I guess. I don't want to hate men, I just want them to be more accountable in general. That would help a lot. But I'm not holding my breath. It's nice to see the few men here and there who are actively trying to help other men to be better to people, showing them how patriarchy has made their lives shitty and how they'd get more kitty if they actually trusted women.